Ugh, this week. I DO NOT LIKE THIS WEEK. There's good stuff happening besides the bad, but my mood's been down the drain for days so whatever, I still hate this week.

Good news first so I can remind myself:

I PASSED MY CIVIL LAW EXAM


which means


LAW SCHOOL ISN'T KICKING ME OUT


which... I don't think I mentioned on here, but they were going to kick me out if I didn't pass civil law. WHICH I DID, so hell yes. Oh this also means that I've passed my first year and electricwitch and I are now ~*classmates*~ lol. THIS SHOULD BE FUN.

Also good news is that I BOUGHT THIS BOOK AND IT IS AMAZING:



I don't think you can tell very well from this picture but this book is fucking MONSTROUSLY HUGE. It is also full of beautiful posters and nerdy background history about them and about early cinemas and film promotion and fnfa'sdgjhjsdk this is the kind of book that gives me nerdgasmic pleasure. Also the original price was €75 BUT I GOT IT NEW FOR €25. Fuck yeaaaaah. I am pleased.

On the downside though I'm probably being kicked out of the English faculty for failing at life and my classes (err for all you new frands: I am (soon to be 'was' lol D:) doing a full-time law BA and a full-time English BA.) Ngl it's pretty much my fault since I let my crazy ass sleeping problems and ADD get the better of me and never actually reported that I was having issues on time, so it looks really sketchy to come knocking with all this shit now that I've actually failed enough classes to be kicked out. IT STILL FUCKING SUCKS THOUGH, I really loved English. I guess this is what I get for being all "NO FUCK HELP I CAN FIX THIS MYSELF" lmao because I can't.

I talked to the English students advisor this morning and she basically said "sorry but you're fucked," though she did tell me to try pleading my case with one other person who miiiiight be able to keep me in (but probably not). I had to get up early this morning to go see her even though my sleeping has fucked up majorly again, and she already told me I'm fucked, so tbh the part where I burst into tears (and hopefully gain some sympathy) in that other person's office will probably come easy. fuuuu. I'm already embarrassed and it hasn't even happened yet.

Aaaand then there's the two months plus homicide thing which I don't think needs explanation as to why it's depressing.

The weather is nice though and at least I'm still a student SOMEWHERE? lol.

Today is weird! I don't know what to make of it. I feel like I'm having a good day when I shouldn't be?

I took what must have been the most stressful (and important) exam resit of my life on about one hour of sleep at 9 am (which ain't such a hot time for me and my lifelong disordered sleeping), and I have noooo idea whether I passed or failed. I was kinda switching back and forth between being focused and ~in the zone~ and completely out of it, sooo idk. I WANT TO KNOW MY RESULTS AND YET I DON'T, so as a compromise I'm going to hope they take the full three weeks to give us our grades back.

On the bright side though the weather was really really wonderful, so I walked most of the way back home. I've been told the weather has been great for a week now, but I wouldn't know lmao. I decided that I deserved comfort food (and I FUCKING DID, omg. Never have I revised as much in one day as I did yesterday. Ten weeks worth of civil law in one day. TEN.), which in a shocking turn of events I COULD ACTUALLY AFFORD. I get my first cheque of the month around the 18th and usually end up with like €10 left to last me at least the entire week before that if not longer, but now I have money left over?! This is literally the first time, lmao. So I stopped off at the supermarket and treated myself to grapes and fresh orange juice and pecan honey pastries. Fuck yes.

AND THEN I CAME HOME AND SWITCHED ON THE TV AND SETTLED DOWN WITH MY AMAZING AS HELL FOOD AND THRILLER STARTED ON MTV RIGHT THEN. lol that made up for a lot, not even gonna lie. It still takes me by surprise every time I see Michael on tv because I'd expected like one day of tributes and then nothing, but they're still playing his videos pretty regularly over here and it makes me




This was like an hour ago, and now half of me is like FUCK YES FREEDOM LET ME GO DO SOMETHING FUN OUTSIDE and the other half of me is like SLEEP. SLEEP AND NEVER WAKE UP. so idk. I'm probably gonna go with sleep, lmao.

Hopefully I'll be awake enough by tomorrow to go visit my dad, because my brother is away on introduction camp with the student society he joined (my bb brother is a UNIVERSITY STUDENT this is making me feel old) and my mum is away doing buddhist things for a week, so my dad is all alonely aw. Also this is the longest I've gone without seeing him since I moved out - not okay! My mum came to visit me last week and my brother crashed at my place a few times during his uni introduction week, so it's really just my dad being ~left out~.

SO APPARENTLY WHEN I DON'T SLEEP ENOUGH I START TO TL;DR ABOUT REAL LIFE STUFF? GOOD TO KNOW!

brb sleeping forever

OH MY GOD

YOU GUYS

CHECK THIS SHIT OUT



SOMEONE MADE A SMOOTH CRIMINAL VIDEO USING CLIPS FROM FRED ASTAIRE FILMS. THIS IS ONE OF THE MOST AMAZING THINGS I HAVE EVER SEEN. OMG I AM DYING.

I AM SERIOUS, EVERYONE NEEDS TO WATCH THIS. YES YOU TOO BITCH.



Okay caps time over!

In less hysterical news, I think I'm finally ~*ready*~ to start taking regular outfit photos, like I've been meaning to do for uh... pretty much ever. I've done two recently just because I liked new stuff that I got, but if I do them more regularly I feel like I should ask y'all for input: should I post them here at all or will it annoy you guys? Should I put them behind a cut for people who don't give a shit? idk what to do! I don't want to annoy anyone with my face and my unhealthy attachment to my dresses, haha.

Also I got a card from glorious Italy from stoppingpolaris! Awesome. In it she claims that Italy is a 20 minute walk from my house. I am curious as to why she has not yet tested her theory! PERHAPS SHE DOES NOT WISH TO COME VISIT ME. Nonetheless it is an A+ card and I love getting mail, so I am inclined to forgive her.

Okay I really need to get my ass off the computer now (lol not happening). I have an exam in a couple of days that has me freaking out and procrastinating like crazy, so please someone tell me to gtfo the internet and start studying! D:

FRESHLY SQUEEZED ORANGE JUICE IS THE MOST DELICIOUS THING IN THE UNIVERSE AS WE KNOW IT.

I just wanted to share that important piece of factual information with y'all.

Also I think the stuffy heat around these parts is getting to me - I've made like a million Karl Lagerfeld macros (no really) for a Karl fanboy friend to ~motivate~ him to study, and I put them in a folder called iKarly. I don't even. SOMEONE TAKE ME AWAY FROM THIS GROSS SWELTERING PLACE SO PERHAPS I CAN FIND MY BRAIN AGAINNN

Also my MJ-is-a-GQ-motherfucker post is going to be ENORMOUS, just so you guys know. I can't decide between all his awesome outfits, THERE WERE SO MANY D:

And lastly, for your consideration: yesterday, my housemate attempted murder on me by going "imagine if Stephen Fry just went 'SHAMOOONE!' one day. Everybody in the world would die of lol." I BELIEVE THIS TO BE TRUE. But I want it to happen!




IMAGINE.


brb sweltering some more, damn weather. I blame this entire post on heatstroke, or like suffocation or some shit. I AM NOT RESPONSIBLE OKAY BYE

I've finally seen the new Harry Potter film - twice since Wednesday, even! This pleases me greatly because, ngl, I love the shit out of that film. They changed a lot of stuff in ways that make no sense at all, but I have decided that being a book purist would turn me into an eternal grump so I can mostly accept the changes. And guys, guys, seriously, HOW FUCKING GOOD DID THIS MOVIE LOOK? I am a sucker for good design and pretty cinematography, and HBP? Fucking DELIVERED. I love love LOVE the look of it. Also insert obligatory marriage proposals to Arick/Helena B-C/Maggie Smith (shut up okay ilher)/Evanna Lynch/Rupert Grint here. Also, props to Tom Felton for being so surprisingly good that I actually feel the need to mention it here! I was always kind of "eh" about both book-Draco and film-Draco because he didn't strike me as particularly interesting or noteworthy, but this film made me really feel for him more than for many of the other characters, so well done that man! Also also, the kid they cast as Hogwarts-age Voldemort was amazing and creepy, I approve.

In non-HP news, I caught the last half of a talk show interview with Viktor & Rolf on tv this evening. Man I am not proud of most things that come out of the Netherlands, but I have so much everlasting love for Viktor & Rolf, y'all don't even KNOW. I love that they design fierce as hale clothes and aren't afraid to go completely nuts and overboard with their collection themes, and I love that they are GQMFs and smrt and have great taste in basically everything in the world. I did not think my country had what it took to bring forth such fierceness; I see now that I was wrong. I did not know! Anyway, the interview was really A+. They had asked V&R to pick a number of clips to show and discuss - from films, tv shows, documentaries, even commercials, whatever they wanted, and the interview sort of happened around the discussion of those clips and why they chose them. They chose really interesting stuff (Paris is Burning among other things, homg <3), had really on point commentary on gay representation in Dutch and international media, and talked a lot about inspiration and creativity and idk, it was just really wonderful and interesting. I'm gonna see if I can find the entire thing online somewhere so I can watch it from the beginning, and maybe also subtitle and upload it for any non-Dutch people who might want to see it.

By the end of the show I really wanted to hit up style.com and put together a huge V&R picspam, so this is what I am doing! I've got like 150+ images right now though and it's waaay too late for me to finish narrowing it down tonight, but there will be a V&R post tomorrow!

Aaaand lastly, I'm finally putting together my first post for Sachlichkeit, the film blog my bb jahrhundert was sweet enough to let me be a part of! It is going to be a Bollywood primer of sorts (yes, really), which will probably look funny in a sea of posts about films that are generally considered respectable, but I've really wanted to write one for a while now so w/e, I'm going through with it. It is turning out to be REALLY DIFFICULT though because seriously, I am for some reason trying to explain the entire cultural context and system of visual shorthand in Bollywood films AND writing a who's-who and need-to-see film list in a single post? Got damn. I'm trying though, and hopefully it will turn out okay.

OKAY THE END, I am going to bed!

No I'm lying, I feel as though my posts are incomplete without MJ gifs nowadays sooo oblig:



Fierce bitch is fierce. ♥

OKAY BYE. <3

Hay guys!

Omg so I have approx. a milli new frands who all share my love for MJ, so SHIT ABOUT TO GET CRAZY IN HURR. J/k, I'm actually going to create a MJ filter on my flist so I can spare everyone who doesn't care about him (HDU!) all my crazy MJ posts. Soooo if anyone else from my friends list DOES want to see all the stuff I have to say about MJ (there will be adorable pictures and videos and gifs, just sayin'), let me know and I will put you on the filter! YOU WILL NOT REGRET IT. Ngl though, I'm still going to make one big ass public entry along the lines of GQ MOTHERFUCKER GOT STYLE, because everyone needs to see that.

ANYWAY, to the point of this post:

PLS INTRODUCE YOURSELVES MY MJ BBS!

I WANT TO KNOW ABOUT CHU! <3


I'll go first~

My name is Maaike, I'm a 21 y/o Dutch girl studying Law and English at Leiden University. Most of the time when I actually need to be studying I'll be reading or watching films or going OMG CLOTHESSS on the interwebs instead though, oops. I'm pretty into early film history (bitches was crazy, let me tell you) and art/pop culture history, especially around fin de siècle and interwar Europe, but tbh I'm pretty nerdy so I just like arts and history shit in general. Err also I like to go to concerts, aand... I have too many dresses? I guess that's about it, idk.

Oh also I should probably pimp this:



OKAY THE END.

HELLO THIS IS A SHORT UPDATE BECAUSE IT'S BEEN A WHILE. I keep meaning to post but then... I don't, idk. You guys should probably be relieved though because otherwise I would have made a million posts that all started out pretending to be normal, only to turn into rly long MJ posts. And by a million I MEAN a million.

SO these are the things that have been going on in my life recently (that do not involve Michael Jackson):

- I WENT TO A REGINA SPEKTOR CONCERT \o/. I just got back a few hours ago actually. She was so goooood and also adorbs, ilher so much. I really need to get with the program and buy her new album already, all the songs she played off it were great.

- My mum had a pretty big surgery last Thursday, which I was fretting over a little even though it was a pretty routine and low-risk operation. It all went swimmingly though and she was even allowed home after 2 days instead of 6! She can't stand up/walk much at the moment, and she's not allowed to ride a bike or lift >2 kilos or basically have a life for the next month and a half, so I plan to keep her company with a stack of DVDs as often as I can. WHAT A CHORE, lol.

- I am pretty sure I'm coming down with something >:( I've been feeling generally blarg for a week or so now and my throat has been hurting like mad for the past 3 days as well. BUT my throat glands or whatever the hell you call them (plz correct my foreign ass if I got this wrong) feel completely normal, says my med student friend. AM I HALLUCINATING AN ILLNESS OR SOMETHING, idgi.

Okay I don't even remember where I was going with this post, I recall having actual interesting things to say and then it turned into... this. Idek :') I need to go to bed. I need to make this post a little less lame before I go though and this is how:



Conclusion: if you thought that Mickey Mouse sweaters were only cute on people under the age of 10 you can just THINK AGAIN. Also the adorableness of upside-down Michael is equal to if not greater than that of right side up Michael. LOOK AT HIM fna;sdg.

EDITED TO ADD THIS FOR GREAT JUSTICE, and also to say HELL YES HBP TOMORROW, FUCKING FINALLY. I don't know how I forgot to mention that!

So after about five years of going "gosh I really should..." I finally read Coraline! I know I know, not like it's even long or anything but idk I just never got around to it ok! Having done so now though I feel that I should mention how it is BRILLIANT. ~*Special thanks*~ to my housemate Jonathan for letting me borrow his copy, because otherwise it would probably have taken another 5 years. Soo yes if any of you are even slower than me (doubtful!) and have not read Coraline yet, do it! Neil Gaiman is awesome and this book is proof.

I only just realised that I accidentally planned basically my entire week to consist of movie marathons with a bunch of different people, oops? I'm watching Bollywood films with my nan tomorrow, as-yet-undecided films with a friend on Wednesday, and having a Harry Potter marathon with friends on Thursday because they will be in Denmark when the next one comes out so they need to be ~prepared~. I was going to go to Denmark with them but then I was short on cash, plus the timing was bad. Sadface! Anyway I'm pretty okay with the film marathon week because even though the weather has been really really good lately, apparently a NEVERENDING THUNDERSTORM is about to start tomorrow, so I guess I'll be safely inside during that mess. This is good!

Also, I am still hung up on MJ. This is less good because it means I unleash my MJ-related emo on the world all the time because I am apparently incapable of shutting up, and I am probably boring people slowly to death with it. But WTF IT SUCKS SO BAD. This is seriously longer than I have ever been upset about anyone dying, including relatives of mine. That really kind of disturbs me idk but I can't stop being sad about it? fnas'dkg I don't know, have a damn video of him with a llama being cute because that is all I am good for right now


OKAY THE END. Cry.

Augh god I'm having a really bad headache right now. I just hope it's because of the warm weather or something, because otherwise it's probably due to the change in my sleeping pattern, which suggests that there will be more headaches in my near future (and frankly, fuck that!)

I've had a sleeping problem for just about as long as I can remember. I finally went to see a doctor about it this month, because after I moved out it escalated from really bad to unmanageable - I couldn't fall asleep before 6-6:30 am, but I couldn't wake up after less than 9 hours of sleep either, which left me with an actually really stable but REALLY FUCKED UP sleeping schedule. I have melatonin pills now, which I use to be able to fall asleep between midnight and 1 am, and I try not to sleep more than 9 hours a night. I've been continuously tired and kind of listless since I started nearly 2 weeks ago, but I'm honestly surprised I'm not feeling worse or having more difficulty keeping this up, since as far as my internal clock is concerned I'm suddenly getting up in the middle of the night all the time and going to sleep mid-afternoon. I just hope the headache isn't going to be a recurring theme, because HELL NO. Anyway yes, I just wanted to mention this here because it's kind of a big deal to me, and honestly I'm pretty proud of myself! I'd almost resigned myself to ending up as a night porter or some shit, but now it turns out I'm capable of fixing this!

In other news, I am still shockingly upset about Michael Jackson. I really don't know what happened there - I mean, I love his music and I've always been incapable of hearing sad life stories like his without getting way too upset, but his death has hit me waaaay harder than I would have expected. I can't get it out of my head, idk. It's really confusing to me to be this upset for this long. Blargh I don't know. Dammit MJ :(

Okay I am done with the emo talk now, promise! In happier news I went shopping with Renée today which was nice, even though I didn't buy anything downtown. The weather was nice and I saw lots of pretty things, so that was fine. We made an order off Modcloth when we got back though and I got REALLY BRILLIANT THINGS which I have been lusting after for months now:







Yay, pretty things \o/


Oh damn now they're showing really old MJ videos on tv and I'm all :((( again. OKAY OVER AND OUT before this post gets even whinier!

Omg so I just had a completely ordinary day visiting family with my brother and getting my hair cut and now I'm back and the entire internet is telling me that MICHAEL JACKSON IS DEAD?!

PEOPLE THIS AIN'T OKAY. Damn. :(



RIP Michael, ilu :( :(

(Also goddammit ONTD is suspended. I need somewhere to vent for the next hour or so, I DO NOT APPROVE OF THIS BULLSHIT)


Ugh this sucks, for real. I'm pretty upset D: UNDEAD YOURSELF, MICHAEL JACKSON. WE'VE LOVED YOU AS A ZOMBIE BEFORE, WE WILL DO IT AGAIN.


:'(